This post is the hardest to write so far. It's not that I don't have anything to say, it's that there's so much to say. It's that I'm not sure any words I can find will do it justice. Yet here I sit, knowing that I need to at least try to put it out there.
Last night I had gotten on the computer to do a bit of study. I will be giving a lesson at a Ladies' Bible study in about a week and a half, and so wanted to work on my lesson. I decided to check Facebook real quick before I got started, and saw a post that stopped me in my tracks.
I have a friend that has been fighting the horrific thing that is cancer. She's been battling it for several years now, and had been in the hospital again recently. During this stay, they have now been told that the treatments are no longer working. This is a hard reality to face. No one wants to learn that someone they care about is being put in this position. She has two sons at home, a loving husband, family, and scores of friends nationwide that love her so much.
I read the words with tears rolling down my cheeks. I had been planning on trying to get back to see her. This new information brought urgency to my plans. I decided to go with my husband's suggestion to get out there again.
This woman is a pillar of strength. While fighting her own battle she has also had to power through losing her mother not even 2 years ago, and losing her father less than a week ago. While we have all been struggling with the words to say, she told us that she is "going home to fight like crazy for the time I have."
She has kept her spunk, and has been a positive influence in so many lives. I have had the pleasure of visiting her on several occasions when my work took me out her way. She is a light, full of laughter and a beautiful person inside and out.
I am so excited to see my friend again. I will not be able to take away the difficult situation she and her family have been put in. I hope to give back just a portion of what she has given to so many people, including myself. Give love, care, and a laugh.
The whole situation is a reminder of the bigger picture. We have so much to live for and appreciate. "Just open your eyes, and see that life is beautiful."
All the best,
OkieGal
Thursday, September 25, 2014
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
The Voices Return
It is so odd. With my workouts I have been rolling along fine, and then today it was just tough. I was 10 minutes in, and all I wanted to do was stop. It was a mental battle the whole time. I had to keep telling myself to make it a few more minutes, a constant personal pep talk for the entirety of the workout. The important point is that I finished it.
I am to the point in my workout program that it is getting more challenging. This is the last week that has more than one rest day allotted. So we're really ramping up. I believe subconsciously that my fears are creeping in, and so my brain is saying, "abort, abort!" I'm getting to the difficult part, and it's getting real. The goals that I have set are before me, and the fear is coming strong. That little voice that thinks I can't really accomplish it, and thinks that I'm going fail is trying to make itself heard.
Times like this, I remind myself that I am capable of this goal. It is about releasing the potential within. I have the strength within me, it is about putting the work in to let it shine. It will not be easy. That is what will make the accomplishment so much more exciting to obtain. By working hard and pushing through these challenges, I will appreciate the progress all the more.
It was a tough workout from a mental perspective. I finished it, and I'm better for it.
All the best,
OkieGal
I am to the point in my workout program that it is getting more challenging. This is the last week that has more than one rest day allotted. So we're really ramping up. I believe subconsciously that my fears are creeping in, and so my brain is saying, "abort, abort!" I'm getting to the difficult part, and it's getting real. The goals that I have set are before me, and the fear is coming strong. That little voice that thinks I can't really accomplish it, and thinks that I'm going fail is trying to make itself heard.
Times like this, I remind myself that I am capable of this goal. It is about releasing the potential within. I have the strength within me, it is about putting the work in to let it shine. It will not be easy. That is what will make the accomplishment so much more exciting to obtain. By working hard and pushing through these challenges, I will appreciate the progress all the more.
It was a tough workout from a mental perspective. I finished it, and I'm better for it.
All the best,
OkieGal
Sunday, September 21, 2014
Wrapping Up Week 3
Three weeks of the 12-week transformation challenge done! Even with some rough points in the week, I finished strong! It has been interesting to find out which of my focus areas are coming along and which are still a work in progress. I am really impressed with how well the infused water pitcher is helping me keep up my water intake. I have had above 70oz for nearly two weeks now, and most days are closer to 100oz! That is a huge improvement from my past bests of around 40oz in a day! I will say that the weekends are more of a struggle for me when it comes to this focus, and so I will be more intentional about it on the weekends moving forward.
From a mental perspective, the fight over doing my workouts is diminishing. I had no trouble jumping right back into it today after my rest day. I still need to work through the physical aspects. My body is still working through the transition from not working out to having a consistent workout regime. Just keep going, and I know it'll continue to get better.
One of my focuses is to be more thoughtful about my treats and to choose healthy food options. I have found that by planning my treat meal in advance, I am less tempted to have treats the rest of the week. I had set in my mind that it would be Saturday, and so we went out and had a great time. It was part of the plan, so I didn't feel guilty. This week we had Mi Ranchito, which is one of the Mexican restaurants in the area. Had chips & salsa, cheese dip, and a great dinner. We then went for dessert to a new place that opened up, Smallcakes Creamery. Smallcakes is a cupcake shop and the creamery is a new concept store for them. They basically take their cupcake flavors and put them into the form of ice cream. I took a picture to prove I did indeed have a treat! Two of my favorite flavors of their cupcakes are the Caramel Crunch and the Red Velvet. Naturally, I got them both in a waffle bowl. It was awesome! When you plan your treat, consider them! :)
The other thing about the treats that is interesting, I don't want them during the week. I had the dinner and the ice cream last night, and I was ready to eat healthy again. I felt bloated and sluggish at the end of the night. I don't regret my treat. I just feel like my body is getting more and more used to the healthy options. It actually wants them more often over the junk than it used to. When I do have to grab a quick bite out, I'm making better choices. That is great progress!
On the sleep front, this is definitely a work in progress. I was in bed around 1 am last night. Between the bloated feeling from the treat and the late night, my day started rough today. As I ate well and got active I noticed I felt better. Getting sleep is going to be important for me. I may have to start writing it on my calendar to keep it top of mind. That seems to be working for my workouts, treats, and water consumption.
I am excited and nervous for next week's measurements and progress pics. I am feeling a difference, and it will be interesting to see if it shows when I check in!
All the best,
OkieGal
Friday, September 19, 2014
Nutrition Revelation
This week has been an improvement when it comes to nutrition for me. I have gotten within striking distance of my calorie goal, and am doing better on the ratios too! I'm still feeling some aches here and there, yet have continued to stick with the workouts. I've been modifying if needed to avoid truly injuring myself. The infused water pitcher has been a great way for me to consistently get my ounces in. The main area with some progress still needed is getting to bed & to sleep at a more reasonable hour. I've improved here, just need to continue that focus.
I mentioned before that my need to focus on overall health had, in part, to do with the fact that I have been told by the doctor several times that my cholesterol was high. This is still the case, in addition there is another reason that nutrition has become a greater focus for me. That reason is Chickpea. From very early on, Chickpea was showing great interest in the activity of eating. He enjoys watching us eat. He thought it was funny at first, and then became more interested in what we were doing. He wanted to try it to!
This made me think about what I was modeling for him. I knew that I wanted him to try real foods. I had planned to make his food for several reasons. One is that it would be easier to just make extra of foods we were already buying. Two is that it's cheaper. Three, I want Chickpea to get a taste of real food before anything that has been packaged or processed is introduced. Fourth, it's easy and cheap!
I got myself something quick one day, and Chickpea was showing interest. I sat there and thought, "I would love to share from my plate, but how can I do that when I'm not eating the things that he can or should eat?" It made me think about what I was modeling and what I want him to see and do.
Now that I'm getting my nutrition on track, I feel much better about what I'm showing him. He will also see that it's fun to have a treat from time to time. That's the point. I'll be giving him an example of a balanced look at food. He will have the opportunity to appreciate healthy foods, and also still be a kid and have a treat here and there.
I am learning a lot and really thinking about why I do what I do. It became obvious now that Chickpea is here, I had to adjust what I am doing nutritionally. Not just to make sure I am here for him for as long as possible, but also to make sure I am giving him the best example I can of a healthy, balanced life.
All the best,
OkieGal
I mentioned before that my need to focus on overall health had, in part, to do with the fact that I have been told by the doctor several times that my cholesterol was high. This is still the case, in addition there is another reason that nutrition has become a greater focus for me. That reason is Chickpea. From very early on, Chickpea was showing great interest in the activity of eating. He enjoys watching us eat. He thought it was funny at first, and then became more interested in what we were doing. He wanted to try it to!
I got myself something quick one day, and Chickpea was showing interest. I sat there and thought, "I would love to share from my plate, but how can I do that when I'm not eating the things that he can or should eat?" It made me think about what I was modeling and what I want him to see and do.
Now that I'm getting my nutrition on track, I feel much better about what I'm showing him. He will also see that it's fun to have a treat from time to time. That's the point. I'll be giving him an example of a balanced look at food. He will have the opportunity to appreciate healthy foods, and also still be a kid and have a treat here and there.
I am learning a lot and really thinking about why I do what I do. It became obvious now that Chickpea is here, I had to adjust what I am doing nutritionally. Not just to make sure I am here for him for as long as possible, but also to make sure I am giving him the best example I can of a healthy, balanced life.
All the best,
OkieGal
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Transition
After a rough start to the week, yesterday and today have been better. Chickpea was in rare form today, but it was nothing too crazy. He mostly is wanting to explore and wiggle around, and he is still working on the whole mobility thing. It ends up being a pretty funny combination. He finds the most interesting ways to get around. When he wasn't playing or wiggling near me, he insisted on clinging to me. He finally got his wiggles out and is snoozing away.
Today is a rest day for the DDP Yoga program, so I decided to get Chickpea out of the house. He got a stroller ride to the park down the road and we did a few laps before coming back home. It was a total of about 30 minutes, and while it was overcast the humidity helped get me sweating. I opted for a quick paced walk today instead of jogging. My knees need a bit of a break, and my goal was just to be moving, and ultimately give Chickpea a change of scenery for awhile.
I feel like I'm falling into familiar territory with my workout. While this is week 3 of the transformation challenged, I am on week 8 of the DDP Yoga advanced schedule. The schedule is 13 weeks long, so I'm in the last half of it. This is a time period with most workouts that I start to really feel it in my body. I'm not injured, I am just sore. My joints are achy and overall tired. I know this is my body adjusting to it all. In the past, this is also about the time I'd start letting up. I would take more rest days until I wasn't doing much of anything. Then I'd be right back where I started.
I'm having to remind myself to keep going. I'm glad that I'm still in the early part of the 12 week challenge while this feeling is hitting me. I believe that it will give me the push I need to make it through this part of my workout journey. I am going to apply something I learned from the labor and delivery process. There's a portion of labor called "transition," and in my childbirth class we talked about it being the part where I would feel like I couldn't do it anymore and want to give up. Having those feelings meant that I was almost ready to push. It was remembering this concept that helped me get through transition and to pushing without asking for pain meds (my goal was a natural, pain med free childbirth, as long as baby and I were healthy. Technically didn't have it natural since I was induced and they used Pitocin, but I did get through without pain meds). I need to remember that my body is transitioning from not working out regularly to having fitness be part of my regular schedule. I have to give myself a chance to fight through it. Just keep going.
This is where taking it one day at a time helps make it all manageable. Day by day, I will continue this journey, and I will make progress!
All the best,
OkieGal
Today is a rest day for the DDP Yoga program, so I decided to get Chickpea out of the house. He got a stroller ride to the park down the road and we did a few laps before coming back home. It was a total of about 30 minutes, and while it was overcast the humidity helped get me sweating. I opted for a quick paced walk today instead of jogging. My knees need a bit of a break, and my goal was just to be moving, and ultimately give Chickpea a change of scenery for awhile.
I feel like I'm falling into familiar territory with my workout. While this is week 3 of the transformation challenged, I am on week 8 of the DDP Yoga advanced schedule. The schedule is 13 weeks long, so I'm in the last half of it. This is a time period with most workouts that I start to really feel it in my body. I'm not injured, I am just sore. My joints are achy and overall tired. I know this is my body adjusting to it all. In the past, this is also about the time I'd start letting up. I would take more rest days until I wasn't doing much of anything. Then I'd be right back where I started.
I'm having to remind myself to keep going. I'm glad that I'm still in the early part of the 12 week challenge while this feeling is hitting me. I believe that it will give me the push I need to make it through this part of my workout journey. I am going to apply something I learned from the labor and delivery process. There's a portion of labor called "transition," and in my childbirth class we talked about it being the part where I would feel like I couldn't do it anymore and want to give up. Having those feelings meant that I was almost ready to push. It was remembering this concept that helped me get through transition and to pushing without asking for pain meds (my goal was a natural, pain med free childbirth, as long as baby and I were healthy. Technically didn't have it natural since I was induced and they used Pitocin, but I did get through without pain meds). I need to remember that my body is transitioning from not working out regularly to having fitness be part of my regular schedule. I have to give myself a chance to fight through it. Just keep going.
This is where taking it one day at a time helps make it all manageable. Day by day, I will continue this journey, and I will make progress!
All the best,
OkieGal
Monday, September 15, 2014
A Case of the Mondays
What a day! Today was just rough. I woke up with a headache, and I can feel the tension in the base of my head/neck has built up. I am not a fan of this, just because I know it has lead to migraines for me in the past. Add on top of that the fact that Chickpea was also having some fussy time today, and it just made it difficult. I also discovered that several of the produce items that I had purchased on Saturday have mold on them, so I was none too thrilled about that. To give a visual, late in the afternoon my husband comes home from the gym. He walks in and Chickpea is in the play yard crying, and I'm sitting in the chair next to it eating my lunch with tears rolling too. Honestly, I think Chickpea was sensing my tension and also he was having tummy issues. Long story short, it was just "ugh!"
The evening was a lot better, and I found myself looking forward to my workout. This hasn't been the case previously. I was looking at it as a stress relief, and a way to end the day on track. It felt good to stretch out, and I have the good after workout high to help my headache as well.
During the early evening, I was playing on the floor with Chickpea. He is working on crawling right now, and I noticed he has a pattern when he's learning something new. Long before he can physically do the action (whether it is rolling over or crawling), you can tell he wants to do it so bad. He tries and tries and gets so frustrated that he's not doing what he knows he wants to do. He'll get so frustrated that he will just lay on the floor, arms folded with his head down. He may not realize it yet, but he is so close to his break through. He soon will have the physical motions down, and be able to accomplish his goal. Watching him do this, I know he has to feel that frustration first. Once he hits the frustration, it will drive him to do more. Once he gets that drive, he accomplishes the action he wants to take. If he reacts like he did with rolling over, he will also be seen showing great joy in his success. Then he'll be onto the next thing to learn.
This made me think about myself. One of my several motivations for challenging myself is to be better for Chickpea. He watches me, and I want him to see a confident Mama that shows him balance in life. Eating healthy, while allowing for treats. Working hard, while celebrating my accomplishments. Appreciating who I am, while always striving to be even better. Helping others, while also taking care of myself. Living a life focused on the Lord.
I also remembered that I am learning a lot from him. I will have frustrations in life, and I may need to cry it out. At the end of the day though, I will pick up and try again. I will keep going, and I will be determined to accomplish my goals. I will also celebrate the successes I have, no matter how small. Then choose the next action to learn more about, and do it.
I must remember it is about progress. While today had a rough start, it is what I did with it that mattered. I celebrate the lesson that Chickpea taught me today, and I will celebrate with him when he accomplishes his own goal!
All the best,
OkieGal
The evening was a lot better, and I found myself looking forward to my workout. This hasn't been the case previously. I was looking at it as a stress relief, and a way to end the day on track. It felt good to stretch out, and I have the good after workout high to help my headache as well.
During the early evening, I was playing on the floor with Chickpea. He is working on crawling right now, and I noticed he has a pattern when he's learning something new. Long before he can physically do the action (whether it is rolling over or crawling), you can tell he wants to do it so bad. He tries and tries and gets so frustrated that he's not doing what he knows he wants to do. He'll get so frustrated that he will just lay on the floor, arms folded with his head down. He may not realize it yet, but he is so close to his break through. He soon will have the physical motions down, and be able to accomplish his goal. Watching him do this, I know he has to feel that frustration first. Once he hits the frustration, it will drive him to do more. Once he gets that drive, he accomplishes the action he wants to take. If he reacts like he did with rolling over, he will also be seen showing great joy in his success. Then he'll be onto the next thing to learn.
This made me think about myself. One of my several motivations for challenging myself is to be better for Chickpea. He watches me, and I want him to see a confident Mama that shows him balance in life. Eating healthy, while allowing for treats. Working hard, while celebrating my accomplishments. Appreciating who I am, while always striving to be even better. Helping others, while also taking care of myself. Living a life focused on the Lord.
I also remembered that I am learning a lot from him. I will have frustrations in life, and I may need to cry it out. At the end of the day though, I will pick up and try again. I will keep going, and I will be determined to accomplish my goals. I will also celebrate the successes I have, no matter how small. Then choose the next action to learn more about, and do it.
I must remember it is about progress. While today had a rough start, it is what I did with it that mattered. I celebrate the lesson that Chickpea taught me today, and I will celebrate with him when he accomplishes his own goal!
All the best,
OkieGal
Saturday, September 13, 2014
Wrapping Up Week 2
Another week has come to a close for my transformation challenge, and I am happy with how it is going so far! Currently I am enjoying watching my Sooners on TV after having my treat meal for the week. Burger, fries, and ice cream for dessert. It was glorious! It's funny how after eating healthy through the week, the treat is quite a shock to the system. I enjoy the treat, but I find myself ready to eat healthy again afterwards. The best of both worlds!
Overall things are going well. My water intake is progressing. Today I got off to a slow start. I still will have had more water than I used to, so it's been great progress for me. I completed all my planned workouts, and only cut one short this week. Again, progress. My nutrition goals suffered a little bit when we were running out of groceries late in the week. I got a Costco membership using a Living Social deal, and replenished our supplies today. It is a step in the right direction for setting me up for progress in this area.
I am already starting to notice muscle building in my legs, booty, and abs. My husband mentioned the other day that he was noticing slight definition in my pec muscles as well. I've been doing a lot of planks and push ups!
For this upcoming week, I will work to continue my momentum with water consumption and workout consistency. I want to give special attention to my nutrition to get more consistency with it. I also will be working to get more sleep. This is always easier said than done with a 7 month old in the house. I feel like it will help me have more energy and get better results overall.
I am thankful for all that I have in my life. Especially those around me that have been so supportive. It is a difficult process to look inside yourself and admit to changes that need to be made in your life. It has been very important to have my husband, my accountability partner, the ladies of the No Excuse Moms groups, and many others that have continued to cheer me on. This is so much more than a physical transformation for me. It is building consistency in my life that will bring even more confidence in myself. Thank you!
All the best,
OkieGal
Overall things are going well. My water intake is progressing. Today I got off to a slow start. I still will have had more water than I used to, so it's been great progress for me. I completed all my planned workouts, and only cut one short this week. Again, progress. My nutrition goals suffered a little bit when we were running out of groceries late in the week. I got a Costco membership using a Living Social deal, and replenished our supplies today. It is a step in the right direction for setting me up for progress in this area.
I am already starting to notice muscle building in my legs, booty, and abs. My husband mentioned the other day that he was noticing slight definition in my pec muscles as well. I've been doing a lot of planks and push ups!
For this upcoming week, I will work to continue my momentum with water consumption and workout consistency. I want to give special attention to my nutrition to get more consistency with it. I also will be working to get more sleep. This is always easier said than done with a 7 month old in the house. I feel like it will help me have more energy and get better results overall.
All the best,
OkieGal
Friday, September 12, 2014
Strive for Progress
The last two days have been interesting. My water intake is definitely improved by quite a bit. I have consistently consumed at least 80oz of water every day since Tuesday. That's definitely a step in the right direction! I also found it easier to get back into the workout groove after my rest day on Wednesday. There were still a few thoughts about skipping Thursday's workout. It was good to see that there weren't as many, and it wasn't as difficult to get back to it.
The area that was a bit more challenging yesterday and today was my nutrition. I am not able to go to the grocery store until tomorrow, so we've been playing the game of trying to piece together meals with not a lot of ingredients to choose from. It's always interesting to see what your creativity comes up with, but I have found that times like these are when bad habits are more likely to creep in. The good news is that even when I did grab something quick, I made healthier choices about what I got.
An example of this was we had Jimmy John's delivered for lunch yesterday. Typically I would get one of the sub sandwiches. Yesterday, I decided that I would get the sub that I normally would want in their lettuce wrap ("unwich") form, have them go light on the condiments, and use the Ezekiel bread we had here at home. I also refrained from getting any extras like chips or a coke. It was proof that I could still grab a bite to eat, and not go completely off the rails from a nutrition perspective.
The other difficulty I had with less options in house was not meeting my calorie goal for the day. The calorie amount would have been decent if I was looking to lose weight. Since my goal is to build muscle, it wasn't ideal. No worries though, I'll be getting back on track tomorrow.
I feel like the biggest win for me out of all this is the fact that I didn't beat myself up over it. Things happen. My accountability buddy pointed out that sometimes we have to do the best with the options we have at that time. I did, and I feel awesome about that. Those are the little steps that make this possible. It is about a lifestyle, not a quick fix diet. We are going to run into situations where we need to made a decision in a pinch, and that's okay.
What I've been reminded of in the last few days is to set myself up to have nutritious options at home. Additionally, I was able to make the healthiest decision possible when the options at home had run out. Life is full of curveballs, and it's about what you do with them. As they say in my DDP Yoga DVD series, "only you control the way you react, how you adapt, how you breathe, and how you take action."
All the best,
OkieGal
The area that was a bit more challenging yesterday and today was my nutrition. I am not able to go to the grocery store until tomorrow, so we've been playing the game of trying to piece together meals with not a lot of ingredients to choose from. It's always interesting to see what your creativity comes up with, but I have found that times like these are when bad habits are more likely to creep in. The good news is that even when I did grab something quick, I made healthier choices about what I got.
An example of this was we had Jimmy John's delivered for lunch yesterday. Typically I would get one of the sub sandwiches. Yesterday, I decided that I would get the sub that I normally would want in their lettuce wrap ("unwich") form, have them go light on the condiments, and use the Ezekiel bread we had here at home. I also refrained from getting any extras like chips or a coke. It was proof that I could still grab a bite to eat, and not go completely off the rails from a nutrition perspective.
I feel like the biggest win for me out of all this is the fact that I didn't beat myself up over it. Things happen. My accountability buddy pointed out that sometimes we have to do the best with the options we have at that time. I did, and I feel awesome about that. Those are the little steps that make this possible. It is about a lifestyle, not a quick fix diet. We are going to run into situations where we need to made a decision in a pinch, and that's okay.
All the best,
OkieGal
Wednesday, September 10, 2014
Infusing Water For The Win
The last couple of days have had some good progress. The infused water pitcher I ordered arrived on Monday. I immediately opened it up and washed it. I added some strawberries to it, filled it with water, and let it infuse over night. I was excited to give it a try Tuesday, and filled my water bottle from the pitcher. I'm happy to say that it met expectations! I enjoyed the light taste of strawberry in my water. It was also successful from a water consumption perspective. I didn't have to remember how many times I refilled my water bottle, I could see how much I had left by the water level in the pitcher. I successfully got through the whole pitcher in one day! That is 93oz!
That's a definite step in the right direction! Today is the second day of using the pitcher method, and I'm happy to say that I am on my last 16oz of the pitcher! It's been interesting to see how my body has reacted so far. Of course there are more frequent bathroom trips, but I'm told that calms down after my body gets used to the new water intake level. Another thing I've noticed is that the more I drink water, the more water I want. It's like my body is saying, "hey, I like this stuff! I want more!" I went over my 93oz goal on Tuesday because of this fact. The last thing I noticed as a breastfeeding mom, I was a lot fuller this morning. I won't go further into it other than to say it was not a side effect I expected! lol
That's a definite step in the right direction! Today is the second day of using the pitcher method, and I'm happy to say that I am on my last 16oz of the pitcher! It's been interesting to see how my body has reacted so far. Of course there are more frequent bathroom trips, but I'm told that calms down after my body gets used to the new water intake level. Another thing I've noticed is that the more I drink water, the more water I want. It's like my body is saying, "hey, I like this stuff! I want more!" I went over my 93oz goal on Tuesday because of this fact. The last thing I noticed as a breastfeeding mom, I was a lot fuller this morning. I won't go further into it other than to say it was not a side effect I expected! lol
This is good progress for me. My goal is to keep the momentum, and take it one day at a time. It's overwhelming to think about drinking all this water every day from now on. If I only think about it one day at a time, it doesn't seem like such an obstacle to overcome. I'll be interested to see what other things I begin to notice as I continue to stay hydrated. I'm also excited to try new flavor combinations and keep the water interesting. We shall see!
All the best,
OkieGal
Monday, September 8, 2014
Let Your Light Shine
When I first picked the blog back up at the beginning of the transformation challenge, I mentioned a journey that I started back in January of 2013 (you can read that post here). I wanted to take at least another post to dive into that journey.
As I mentioned before, I had reached a point where I was sick and tired. It's kind of odd to say, because it's not like I was desperately unhappy. I'm married to my best friend, I have a nice home, live in a nice neighborhood, have a stable job, and am blessed. While I had those things, I couldn't help but feel like there had to be more. In reality, I knew, deep down, that I was (and still am) capable of so much more than I was giving in my life. I believe that it is possible to be content (defined as "in a state of peaceful happiness"), and still strive to better yourself.
For me, I felt like I was not doing all that I could with what God had given me. I was capable of being an even better wife, daughter, sister, friend, employee, co-worker, and servant of God. In short, I love who I am and what I have in my life, and I want to be even better for myself and those around me.
I had come to a place that I knew I wanted more for myself, yet I didn't know how to go about it. I joined that call (Call2Action), and something wonderful happened. I was reminded that within me is so much potential, and I have a lot to offer. I learned more about how my mind works, and with that knowledge I am able to better understand myself. Getting what you want from life doesn't have to be overly complicated. It's about making small shifts in your life, and taking action.
They reminded me the importance of letting my light shine. A shining light is not about being complacent or comfortable. To shine, "to be bright with reflected light; glisten; sparkle," or "to excel or be conspicuous." In order to shine, I need to stand out and show my capabilities.
It is about being thankful for who I am, and strive to progress in all areas of my life. It's about respecting myself, and knowing that hiding my potential does nothing for anyone. I am capable of so much physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
It has been so empowering to take ahold of my journey, make decisions, take action, and progress towards the life that I want for myself and my family. Especially now that I am a mother, I want my son (and any future children) to have an example in me of how to live a happy and fulfilled life being the best you can be.
All the best,
OkieGal
P.S. If you're interested, Michael Bernoff recently did a free call where he talked about what he called "The 90 Day Deal." It was a different way at looking at obtaining things that you want in your life. I found it to be a great call, especially as I prepared for this challenge. If you want to take a listen to it, check it out here.
As I mentioned before, I had reached a point where I was sick and tired. It's kind of odd to say, because it's not like I was desperately unhappy. I'm married to my best friend, I have a nice home, live in a nice neighborhood, have a stable job, and am blessed. While I had those things, I couldn't help but feel like there had to be more. In reality, I knew, deep down, that I was (and still am) capable of so much more than I was giving in my life. I believe that it is possible to be content (defined as "in a state of peaceful happiness"), and still strive to better yourself.
For me, I felt like I was not doing all that I could with what God had given me. I was capable of being an even better wife, daughter, sister, friend, employee, co-worker, and servant of God. In short, I love who I am and what I have in my life, and I want to be even better for myself and those around me.
I had come to a place that I knew I wanted more for myself, yet I didn't know how to go about it. I joined that call (Call2Action), and something wonderful happened. I was reminded that within me is so much potential, and I have a lot to offer. I learned more about how my mind works, and with that knowledge I am able to better understand myself. Getting what you want from life doesn't have to be overly complicated. It's about making small shifts in your life, and taking action.
They reminded me the importance of letting my light shine. A shining light is not about being complacent or comfortable. To shine, "to be bright with reflected light; glisten; sparkle," or "to excel or be conspicuous." In order to shine, I need to stand out and show my capabilities.
It is about being thankful for who I am, and strive to progress in all areas of my life. It's about respecting myself, and knowing that hiding my potential does nothing for anyone. I am capable of so much physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
It has been so empowering to take ahold of my journey, make decisions, take action, and progress towards the life that I want for myself and my family. Especially now that I am a mother, I want my son (and any future children) to have an example in me of how to live a happy and fulfilled life being the best you can be.
All the best,
OkieGal
P.S. If you're interested, Michael Bernoff recently did a free call where he talked about what he called "The 90 Day Deal." It was a different way at looking at obtaining things that you want in your life. I found it to be a great call, especially as I prepared for this challenge. If you want to take a listen to it, check it out here.
Sunday, September 7, 2014
A Revelation About Stress
What a day! I was just not feeling it at all today. Chickpea woke up several times last night, which is not normal for him. I think he's having a growth spurt or something because he also wanted to eat a lot today. He was tired, I was tired, and it was just a more challenging day than normal. I woke up with a headache, but it seemed to subside after I got breakfast. We went to church, and after we got home it was just one mess after another. I will spare any details and just say that we ended up with impromptu bath time this afternoon and a load of laundry to be done.
Overall I was feeling a bit grumpy and tired. Just felt stressed. In the midst of all this I did become aware of several things about myself. First of all, I am proud to say that while the DDP Yoga schedule allowed for an optional rest day, I opted to do a workout. I knew I'd feel better after doing it. I just finished, and can say that I'm glad I did it! I feel more relaxed and will have a much easier time getting to sleep, assuming Chickpea lets me stay that way!
The other thing I learned is that when I get stressed, I start thinking about all those comfort foods that tempt me. This gets even worse when I am feeling very hungry. It starts a spiral to where it impacts my decision making, state of mind, etc. I have a tendency to be hypoglycemic, meaning that when they made the candy bar commercials about "you're not yourself when you're hungry," they were describing me! Add these symptoms to stress, and you have a perfect storm leading me to less than optimal food choices. Luckily by this point hubby had come home from work, and was able to make me a quick protein shake to help get me out of the "hangry" situation.
The revelation about how stress impacts my food choices is a great one. Now that I'm aware of it, I can give myself healthy alternatives to those comfort foods. For example, I usually find some sort of potato sounds awesome when I'm in this state of mind. That's not necessarily a bad thing. I love sweet potatoes too, and that could be a great alternative. It would give the comfort food vibe, without killing my nutrition goals. Another option is to choose to allow myself a treat. In today's situation, I didn't want to burn my treat for the week on the first day. That's the beauty of it, I gain so much by becoming aware of my thought processes. I can begin to think through what is really going on, recognize it for what it is, and then make a choice based on what I know my goals are and the information in front of me.
In the past, I would have more easily said "screw it," and ended up diverting off my path. Then that diversion would give way to more, and then I'm nowhere near the path I really want to be on. Now I see the situation for what it is, own that situation, and then make a decision. Today I chose to stay on the path. That's a huge win for me!
All the best,
OkieGal
Overall I was feeling a bit grumpy and tired. Just felt stressed. In the midst of all this I did become aware of several things about myself. First of all, I am proud to say that while the DDP Yoga schedule allowed for an optional rest day, I opted to do a workout. I knew I'd feel better after doing it. I just finished, and can say that I'm glad I did it! I feel more relaxed and will have a much easier time getting to sleep, assuming Chickpea lets me stay that way!
The other thing I learned is that when I get stressed, I start thinking about all those comfort foods that tempt me. This gets even worse when I am feeling very hungry. It starts a spiral to where it impacts my decision making, state of mind, etc. I have a tendency to be hypoglycemic, meaning that when they made the candy bar commercials about "you're not yourself when you're hungry," they were describing me! Add these symptoms to stress, and you have a perfect storm leading me to less than optimal food choices. Luckily by this point hubby had come home from work, and was able to make me a quick protein shake to help get me out of the "hangry" situation.
In the past, I would have more easily said "screw it," and ended up diverting off my path. Then that diversion would give way to more, and then I'm nowhere near the path I really want to be on. Now I see the situation for what it is, own that situation, and then make a decision. Today I chose to stay on the path. That's a huge win for me!
All the best,
OkieGal
Saturday, September 6, 2014
Wrapping Up Week 1
We are at the end of the first week of the 12-week transformation challenge. I want to take a few moments to reflect on what is going well and where I can improve as it goes into week 2.
Having the fitness calendar in my dining room has been very helpful. I can see all my fitspiration images and remind myself of my goals. I also like only writing things down when I actually do them. It may be very childlike of me, but I enjoy it like a sticker chart. lol! Finally, it is right there for my hubby to see too. That keeps me accountable as well.
I have found myself continually improving when it comes to nutrition. Not only am I closer to my calorie goal at the end of the day, I also am seeing improvement in the balance of carbs, protein, and healthy fats. Even more exciting for me was the fact that I allowed myself a treat yesterday, and found it difficult to think of something I wanted. Things that in the past would have been a temptation, weren't as appealing as they used to be. I did have a serving of dark chocolate sea salt caramel, and enjoyed it. No guilt. It was an intentional decision, and part of my plan.
I have found myself continually improving when it comes to nutrition. Not only am I closer to my calorie goal at the end of the day, I also am seeing improvement in the balance of carbs, protein, and healthy fats. Even more exciting for me was the fact that I allowed myself a treat yesterday, and found it difficult to think of something I wanted. Things that in the past would have been a temptation, weren't as appealing as they used to be. I did have a serving of dark chocolate sea salt caramel, and enjoyed it. No guilt. It was an intentional decision, and part of my plan.
An area that I am going to focus more on this week is my water intake. Some days were better than others, just not quite where I want it to be. To help with this, I ordered a water infusion pitcher from Amazon. It holds 93 oz, so if I aim to get through the pitcher over the course of my whole day, I will be closer to my goal. Plus it will be fun to have different flavors of water to make it more interesting. I found a website that has flavor ideas, and I look forward to trying some different combos!
Another area that I will need to give more attention to is getting to bed at a reasonable hour. That can be easier said than done with an almost 7 month old, and a hubby that usually gets home after 9pm. I usually am doing my workouts when Chickpea goes to bed for the evening, and then I want to stay up to spend time with my husband when he gets home. There is still room for improvement here, and I will be working on it.
When it came to my workouts, I did have to battle in my mind over doing them a day or two this week. The great news is that I did them! You can read more about this topic in my post called Bumps in the Road.
With each area I know there is much more to be done. The important thing is that I continue to take one step at a time. This is just the beginning, and there is still the excitement and enthusiasm of starting the challenge. To help continued progress, I will need to find ways to tap back into that excitement when more difficult days pop up.
I will continue to benefit from the accountability that is obtained from writing here. I will begin adding things that motivate me to the mix so that I can read through them when I need a boost.
Week 2 awaits!
All the best,
OkieGal
Thursday, September 4, 2014
Bumps in the Road
So far the first week of the challenge has been going pretty well. With each day, I am more consistent about making my calorie goals. I have also found healthy ways to satiate my sweet tooth. I did find that after having a rest day from my workouts yesterday, my mind wanted to skip today. It's something I've had a challenge with before, and will continue to work through it.
It's amazing how much being aware of my mental state helps me. If I recognize when my brain is throwing out excuses, I can shut them down. For instance, I sat and thought "well the baby did get up twice last night, so if I just take today off too..." However, I know that I feel so much better at the end of the day when I get the workout in. I sleep better, I stretch out my body after working a desk job all day, and I'll take another step forward being consistent (which will build confidence). Instead of listing excuses for not doing it, I focus in on reasons why I should do it, and think about those.
Are there days that I do skip? Of course. My goal with those days is to make a conscious decision about it. Instead of idly letting the day go by without doing the workout, I acknowledge the decision not to do it. I may say, "I choose not to do my workout today, and I will instead make it up on what was my next planned rest day." This approach causes me to think it through, be aware of my decision, and own it. I also free myself from guilt. I chose to do it, and have a plan for making it up.
So what if I do idly skip the workout? I am working to not beat myself up over those times. I'm human, it happens. My goal in that situation is to get back in my routine faster than I did the time previously. In the grand scheme of things, I'm working to stay on track more often than not.
Up until the moment I started the DDP Yoga DVD this evening, I found my body and mind still fighting it. I knew I should and I was going to, yet my mind was trying to betray me. The important point is that I did it. I pushed play, and I did the workout. Today I overcame the thoughts that were trying to hold me back. And guess what, I feel better after the workout! Here's to small victories!
All the best,
OkieGal
Are there days that I do skip? Of course. My goal with those days is to make a conscious decision about it. Instead of idly letting the day go by without doing the workout, I acknowledge the decision not to do it. I may say, "I choose not to do my workout today, and I will instead make it up on what was my next planned rest day." This approach causes me to think it through, be aware of my decision, and own it. I also free myself from guilt. I chose to do it, and have a plan for making it up.
So what if I do idly skip the workout? I am working to not beat myself up over those times. I'm human, it happens. My goal in that situation is to get back in my routine faster than I did the time previously. In the grand scheme of things, I'm working to stay on track more often than not.
Up until the moment I started the DDP Yoga DVD this evening, I found my body and mind still fighting it. I knew I should and I was going to, yet my mind was trying to betray me. The important point is that I did it. I pushed play, and I did the workout. Today I overcame the thoughts that were trying to hold me back. And guess what, I feel better after the workout! Here's to small victories!
OkieGal
Wednesday, September 3, 2014
Where I've Been & Where I'm Going
Today didn't start out quite as planned, so I am posting this evening instead of in the morning. We had major thunderstorms, which proceeded to wake my Chickpea up earlier than normal! Oh well, we have made it through another day, and I'm ready to share today's topic!
As promised, I'm sharing my goals for the 12-week transformation contest! Before talking about where I'm going, I wanted to share where I've been. I will say before I start, that this is just my history. It's not right or wrong, it just is. I have never really cared about the scale, and tend to go off of how my clothes fit to determine where I'm at physically. The main reason I knew my weight through the years was either because of doctor's appointments or because I was tracking a starting point before a fitness routine.
About 2008 is where I can really remember the rollercoaster of weight loss and gain beginning for me. I would be doing well for awhile, and then get discouraged and say "forget it" in my mind. In December of 2010, I was preparing to do P90X with my husband. We took before pictures and did measurements, and I weighed in at 130 lbs. I did see some results, and then I injured my knee before I could complete the whole program.
Fast forward a bit and I reached my heaviest of 138 lbs. In early 2013 I got active again with more consistency. I joined karate, and was training for the Warrior Dash 5K. I lost weight and got down to 125 lbs. I then learned I was pregnant in late June of 2013. I was determined to stay fit and active during the pregnancy. My main goal was healthy me and healthy baby, and I also wanted to do a natural, pain med free childbirth.
After 2 failed glucose tests, I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes and put on a strict diet. My midwife said I didn't just fail the test, my numbers were the worst she'd seen in a long time! She was willing to let me try to control blood sugar with diet, but if I couldn't I would be on medication or need insulin injections. Long story short, I was able to control blood sugar levels with diet alone, and maintained an active lifestyle. I was not worried about weight while pregnant, because that's part of the deal. They were keeping track though, so I know my max weight during pregnancy was 140lbs. I had to be induced using a low dose of Pitocin due to low fluid levels, but was still able to labor and deliver pain med free!
The nutrition I needed to maintain through the pregnancy is part of what I believe helped in my quick recovery. While I wasn't focused on losing weight at all, I found myself back to pre-pregnancy weight 2 weeks post partum. This, I believe, is due in part to how my body reacted to breastfeeding. I took before photos again at 7 weeks post partum to get ready to work out again, this time using DDP Yoga (since it is low impact). I ran the 2014 Warrior Dash 5K at 10 weeks post partum.
I then decided to focus in on my transition from being a new Mom to being a working new Mom, so paused my workouts. About a month ago I started up the workouts again and really began to think about what I wanted. After all these years, I had gotten the weight off. Now what do I really want? As mentioned in previous posts, I want a healthy, strong, and fit physique. I want to build muscle and have definition where I can see the results of my hard work.
This brings me to why I joined the transformation challenge. Transformation is not just about weight loss. For some it is, and that's an awesome reason to begin the challenge. For me, it is about transforming into the athletic build that deep down I've always wanted. So my goals are not centered around weight loss, they are around building muscle.
Here are the 6 focuses I have set for the next 12 weeks to help me get on the right path towards reaching my ultimate goal.
Consistently and intentionally:
- Improve my mental attitude towards health and fitness
- Choose healthy food options
- Choose to complete my workouts
- Drink water
- Make sleep a priority
- Thoughtfully allow myself treats.
When the 12 week challenge is complete, I will then reassess where I am. What is working? What can be improved? What more do I need to learn to help me get what I want? Then I will start the process over again. In short, continuous improvement.
At the end of the day, it is about me becoming an even better version of myself. I am proud of who I am, where I've come from, and what I've learned about myself along the way. It takes dedication and consistency to make this lifestyle a part of who I am. I am not perfect, and I will make mistakes. I want to prove to myself that I am the person that can follow through and reach for what it is that I want. It is something that I am applying specifically to fitness in this case, and the concepts will transfer to other parts of my life as well.
All the best,
OkieGal
As promised, I'm sharing my goals for the 12-week transformation contest! Before talking about where I'm going, I wanted to share where I've been. I will say before I start, that this is just my history. It's not right or wrong, it just is. I have never really cared about the scale, and tend to go off of how my clothes fit to determine where I'm at physically. The main reason I knew my weight through the years was either because of doctor's appointments or because I was tracking a starting point before a fitness routine.
About 2008 is where I can really remember the rollercoaster of weight loss and gain beginning for me. I would be doing well for awhile, and then get discouraged and say "forget it" in my mind. In December of 2010, I was preparing to do P90X with my husband. We took before pictures and did measurements, and I weighed in at 130 lbs. I did see some results, and then I injured my knee before I could complete the whole program.
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| Dec 2010 at 130lbs vs Aug 2014 (6.5 months post partum) at 110lbs |
Fast forward a bit and I reached my heaviest of 138 lbs. In early 2013 I got active again with more consistency. I joined karate, and was training for the Warrior Dash 5K. I lost weight and got down to 125 lbs. I then learned I was pregnant in late June of 2013. I was determined to stay fit and active during the pregnancy. My main goal was healthy me and healthy baby, and I also wanted to do a natural, pain med free childbirth.
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| Dec 2010 at 130lbs vs Apr 2014 (7 weeks post partum) at 120lbs vs Aug 2014 (6.5 months post partum) at 110lbs |
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| Dec 2010 at 130lbs vs Apr 2014 (7 weeks post partum) at 120lbs vs Aug 2014 (6.5 months post partum) at 110lbs |
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| Dec 2010 at 130lbs vs Aug 2014 (6.5 months post partum) at 110lbs |
This brings me to why I joined the transformation challenge. Transformation is not just about weight loss. For some it is, and that's an awesome reason to begin the challenge. For me, it is about transforming into the athletic build that deep down I've always wanted. So my goals are not centered around weight loss, they are around building muscle.
Here are the 6 focuses I have set for the next 12 weeks to help me get on the right path towards reaching my ultimate goal.
Consistently and intentionally:
- Improve my mental attitude towards health and fitness
- Choose healthy food options
- Choose to complete my workouts
- Drink water
- Make sleep a priority
- Thoughtfully allow myself treats.
When the 12 week challenge is complete, I will then reassess where I am. What is working? What can be improved? What more do I need to learn to help me get what I want? Then I will start the process over again. In short, continuous improvement.
At the end of the day, it is about me becoming an even better version of myself. I am proud of who I am, where I've come from, and what I've learned about myself along the way. It takes dedication and consistency to make this lifestyle a part of who I am. I am not perfect, and I will make mistakes. I want to prove to myself that I am the person that can follow through and reach for what it is that I want. It is something that I am applying specifically to fitness in this case, and the concepts will transfer to other parts of my life as well.
All the best,
OkieGal
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
Food and My Relationship With It
Today I have been thinking about nutrition. More specifically my attitude towards it. I purposely used the word nutrition, instead of diet here. For me, I feel like diet has gotten a restrictive and negative connotation in my own mind. I realized this when I was deciding to do the transformation challenge and immediately thought I better eat a bunch of stuff I "can't have anymore."
As that thought crossed my mind, I realized I have had unhealthy associations with food and with having a healthy lifestyle. The guidelines of the challenge even allow for 1-2 treats a week, yet my mind thought I can never have sweets again. It is simply not true, or realistic.
It is about balance in life. I should be eating the healthy good for me foods more often than not, and having a treat here and there is okay and completely normal. While I'm no expert, I have read in several places that having a treat here and there actually helps keep you on track. It's when the treats are happening a majority of the time that it becomes a problem.
Another thing I realized is that I had been rewarding myself with food in the past. For me, this is counterproductive and feeds into the thought process that a food plan is restrictive. I am working on ideas for rewards when I hit milestones that aren't food related. It's important to celebrate the milestones, while keeping myself on track.
My focus is now on balanced nutrition, and creating a sustainable, healthy lifestyle. Good nutrition is important for me. In my last 2 yearly physicals, I was told that my cholesterol was too high. You wouldn't guess it by looking at me, yet it's true. I want to get a handle on that now before my health is deteriorating because of it.
The other reason it is important, is because only by having healthy nutrition will I get to my personal aspirations. While I'll talk about my goals more tomorrow, since my overall focus is to build muscle and not lose weight, I'll have to track to make sure I am eating enough calories to support that plus the calories needed to breastfeed. It's a lot harder than I thought. Especially when trying to use healthy foods to reach the calorie goal with a good balance between healthy fats, protein, and carbohydrates. I've started using the MyFitnessPal app again to help track the calories and ratios.
When I think of my nutrition as adding more of the healthy foods instead of as a restrictive activity, it puts my mind in the right space. Even choosing to add one more healthy meal a day is progress.
The other reason it is important, is because only by having healthy nutrition will I get to my personal aspirations. While I'll talk about my goals more tomorrow, since my overall focus is to build muscle and not lose weight, I'll have to track to make sure I am eating enough calories to support that plus the calories needed to breastfeed. It's a lot harder than I thought. Especially when trying to use healthy foods to reach the calorie goal with a good balance between healthy fats, protein, and carbohydrates. I've started using the MyFitnessPal app again to help track the calories and ratios.
When I think of my nutrition as adding more of the healthy foods instead of as a restrictive activity, it puts my mind in the right space. Even choosing to add one more healthy meal a day is progress.
The good news is that I can choose to make a difference. Through the challenge my focus is to be more consistent with healthy nutrition, choosing a healthy option more often than not. Enjoying treats from time to time, and using other options as rewards instead of food.
All the best,
OkieGal
Monday, September 1, 2014
My Transformation is Mine Alone
Today is Day 1 of the transformation challenge! Last night my hubby took measurements for me and we also took my before pictures, which I am posting below with much nervousness.
I keep reminding myself that my transformation is mine, and mine alone. The reminders are necessary as I keep hearing those old, familiar voices in my mind. They make me question myself and wonder what other people will think. They ask me "why are you even doing this?" They tell me that my transformation won't be as dramatic as others', so why even try? They ask me "how would feel if I fail, and everyone knows it?"
I'm fighting those thoughts, and will prove them wrong. You see, my transformation is about me now compared to me in the future. I should not compare mine to others' journeys. They have their own. I will still celebrate in their successes and be understanding of their struggles. I just need to also celebrate my own successes and fight through my own struggle. A dramatic change for someone else has no impact on my transformation, other than to serve as motivation and inspiration. Someone else's journey does not diminish my own, nor does mine diminish theirs. We all have our own journey and own transformation through that journey.
This point of view is what I am working toward. I still struggle with it as I type it here. I know it's true, and I believe it. I am working on shifting it from something I know, to thoughts that are part of who I am.
There is more than a physical transformation at work for me. My mind tries to work against me. It is easier to stay where I am, and so my mind tries to trick me into staying there, comfortable. Now is the time to make small shifts in my life to reach for what I really want, and achieve it.
I am taking it one day at a time. For my workouts, I am on week 6 of the 13 week advanced DDP Yoga schedule. I will also be adding in walks/jogs with my son, aka Chickpea, in the jogging stroller. The DDP Yoga plan takes me through 8 weeks of the transformation contest, so I found a 4 week program online that is patterned after what Gina Carano does. This gives me 8 weeks to warm up for that mentally, and get any equipment or accessories (or get to the gym instead of only an at home based workout).
The other piece is nutrition. I am not following a specific meal plan that tells me what to eat each meal. What I am doing is reaching for daily calorie intake goals, along with goals for my carb, protein, and fat ratios. My calorie goal is 1500 + 500 since I'm breastfeeding, bringing it to a total of 2,000. I will be monitoring the success of this goal and the ratios as I go, and will adjust as necessary. I track it all using the My Fitness Pal app on my phone.
I am excited and nervous! I am finalizing what will be my 6 goals/focuses for the duration of the transformation challenge in the next day or so before I submit them to the contest. I plan to share them here to keep me accountable.
All the best,
OkieGal
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